Mother's day and grief.

Mother's day and Grief 

I'm sitting on my couch watching All Round To Mrs Browns great show for a laugh.

 All the mammys are on including Andy murray's mam Judy (57) who is chatting having a bit of banter during the show then Mrs Brown brings out Judy's Mam. She is full zest for her age and seems to be having a great time on show. 

This is a classic emotional trigger for me. I start welling up as my subconscious lights up with emotions. The void arrives! thoughts bring me back to a time before my mom had died aged 52.     My wife distracts my thoughts for a few moments sharing what she has planned for mother's day 

with her own mam tomorrow. 

I just smile as life all around us has to go on. Grief is a very hard emotion to explain.You have to go through grief to feel the emotions and pain of losing a person very close to you.The physically loss within grief is the hardest( Not be able to hug,hear,speak interact) imo this causes the greatest emotional pain. Its took me years of learning to be with your emotional pain and learning to cope with the loss of a person who played a major role in my life.

My thoughts switch and focus back to my wife, enjoy your day tomorrow I replied our eldest comes down the stairs and says night mom and dad can't wait for tomorrow  then I hear the patter of little feet running down the stairs, our two youngest arrive into sitting room? What are you all doing tomorrow while i'm at work? They shout we (Mam, Nana & Us) are going to the cinema and then lunch. Then up to say hello to Nana in the graveyard. A tear rolls down my cheek. I've learnt always allow your tears to flow never wipe or stop yourself to shed a tear allow your emotion to flow and accept the emotion that lead you to so. 

I smile right so lads, up to bed say night to mam. Night MAM, Night all she replied.  Just to hear mam being said and to see my wife smile light up the room, brings it all home  

"stay in the moments of life" allow yourself to feel and miss a loved one who are not with us. 

Learn to be with your emotional pain within grief.

Happys Mothers day to all  

Link to Cope-With-Emotional-Pain